I've always been a dreamer. To a fault. I spent my early years dreaming of the future. Of my prince charming. Of the perfect semi in the suburbs. Of chubby cheeked dark haired little ones. It took up my days. I passed my hours designing my house in my head. Naming my babies.
Fast forward 20 years. The man of my dreams is here. But the rest? The rest has not materialised. That perfect semi? A rented terrace house. Those chubby babies? I whisper the word infertility under my breath.
I am here.
It's not where I imagined I'd be.
But here is where God has me.
And as He alone is wise. Is perfect.
As He alone knows my end from my beginning.
I will cling to Him in the here and now.
For it is here that He wants me to be.
I can feel your pain, but also what I hope is your sense of peace and comfort. I love this line..."For it is here that He wants me to be." A tough place to be, but yet where he has you...I'll be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI hopped over from Lisa-Jo's place.
Mary
http://memyselfandmercy.blogspot.com/
Even as your dreams crash, may you find healing and be able to receive new visions of your future ...
ReplyDeleteLinda
"I am here. It's not where I imagined I'd be.But here is where God has me...I will cling to Him in the here and now.For it is here that He wants me to be."
ReplyDeleteHow beautiful, to trust, even when the desires of your heart are not present. Fortunately, His dreams for us are far bigger than our imagining.
Glad I landed here from FMF.
Peace and good to you.