Focus

I used to be the girl who always met deadlines. The girl who was never late. The girl whose diary was always so accurate that she never missed a thing. The girl whose work was always done with accuracy.

That was before college. Not me being at college, because when I was there I was that super organised girl. but my Husbands return to study. We've waited for this day for so long and now he's there. And I'm here. Across that wretched barrier; the sea. Him there. Me here. My heart is with him across the sea. My body is here. Doing what we have to do to get college completed.

I feel like I'm living in two places at once.

And I've totally lost focus.

My head is so full of counting the days 'til the weekend that I forgetwhat people ask me in work.

My diary is so full of days when he's home; that I've forgotten to write anything else down.

When he comes home I forget that the world continues and deadlines must be met.

But I can't lose total focus. I need to keep focused on the One who has called us to this crazy year. The One who has directed our footsteps to a life of serving Him.

When everything else seems out of focus I need to make sure that He is still perfectly clear and that I can still look to Him.